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It literally has been forever but I'm sure nobody has noticed since nobody reads these to start with. But i thought i might just word vomit this all out so in case someone gets bored enough to click this, theres actually something there.

SO, updates.
Im single again, finally!
Have been for 3 months and i am so so hapy in that respect
I'm seeing somebody casually, so commitments style and im loving it.
Turns out he was cheating
and doing weed
So im glad im out of there and I hope he gets herpes
Happy happy happy.

In contrast, ive been fighting depression on and off for about 5 months now.
I have good weeks and bad weeks.
This ones ok, last was bad bad bad.
I dont talk about it much, most my friends dont even know
and i tend to keep it that way
I dont want attention
I just want to get better!
Sad sad sad.

In other exciting news, Ive been public speaking again!
I won my heat for the Plain English Speaking Award, won $30 book voucher
Competing in Semis on the 23rd of next month!
annnnd then theres Rostrum Voice of Youth....
Nailed the heats. Through.
then the unthinkable happened.
I nailed the SEMI FINALS
IM TALKING AT PARLIAMENT HOUSE ON THE 22ND
HOLY SHIT
BEST 4 IN THE STATE
I cried
Excited Excited Excited

In not to exciting news, exams in less than 2 weeks. Shit.
I have 6 - Psychology, Math, English Studies, Economics, Legal Studies and Japanese.
I cant handle the stress.
I have my revision all in one massive folder and its really scary
i just dont want to think about it.
Nervous Nervous Nervous

Cool news. Ive been asked to apply for a grant from my school.
Im applying for 600 dollars to get my Cert II in makeup and beauty!!
Thats really cool for me ok
I also have the Coastal Scents 88 Pallete which ive wanted FOREVER
Im so into makeup right now
Cool Cool Cool

I saw Nickelback
and Hot Chelle Rae (ft Cher Lloyd, 5 Seconds of Summer and Masketta Fall)
Which was amazeballs!


So thats my life updated to right now this second as i sit in a loud psychology class
I should be working,
buuuuuuuuut
no.

Check out this chick, shes new here, and she doesnt understand your people things What are this?
mellon-e.deviantart.com/

Cass out
love you guys xoxxo

I...
[x] Sleep a regular 8 hours.
[ ] Sleep more than 8 hours.
[] Sleep less than 8 hours.
[] Take naps.
[] Sleep every other day.
[] Never sleep.
Total: 1

I have...
[x] Nothing. I'm normal.
[] Insomnia
[] Sleep Apnea
[] Restless Leg Syndrome.
[] Abnormal sleeping habits.
[] Some other sleep disorder.
Total: 2

I have/also______in my sleep.
[ ] Snore
[ ] Drool
[] Walk
[] Talk
[] Sing
[] Some other weird thing (i move around a lot)
Total: 2

When I wake up...
[ ] I question reality.
[x] I wonder what my dream means.
[x] I wonder where the object I was holding went.
[] I cry or scream.
[x] I try to go back to sleep.
[] I get the hell out of bed.
Total: 5

In my dreams...
[] I don't have dreams.
[x] I see crazy stuff.
[] I find love.
[x] I do what I want.
[] I do the stuff I would usually do in the waking world.
[] I die.
Total: 7

In my nightmares...
[] I don't have nightmares.
[x] I see more crazy stuff.
[] Someone tries to kill me, but I can't die.
[x] Something tragic happens.
[x] Something morbid happens.
[] I go crazy.
Total: 10

I can't sleep. I...
[ ] Take medication.
[x] Read a book.
[ ] Listen to soft music.
[x] Think monsters are watching me.
[ ] Think this is boring.
[x] Tire myself out somehow.
Total: 13

Sometimes I dream of...
[x] My friends/family.
[ ] The games I've played.
[] Cartoons/Comics.
[x] School/work.
[ ] Drawing.
[x] Music.
Total: 16

Sometimes I...
[ ] Cry myself awake.
[ ] Shake myself awake.
[ ] Force myself awake.
[x] Try not to wake  up.
[ ] Burst awake fully energized.
[x] Go into a half sleep half awake state.
Total: 18

To wake up I need...
[x] An alarm clock.
[ ] A cellphone alarm.
[] An iHome alarm.
[] Human rude awakenings.
[] The smell of food.
[ ] Me. I trained myself to wake up on time.
Total: 19

Who/What's with you at night?
[] My Boyfriend/Girlfriend.
[  ] My Pets.
[ ] My Parent(s).
[] My siblings.
[x] My stuffed animals.
[x] Myself.
Total: 21

I'm finally out of bed. First thing I do is...
[x] Eat food.
[  ] Turn the TV on.
[x] Get ready for school/work.
[] Greet the person next to you.
[ ] Go on the computer.
[x] Go to the bathroom.
Grand Total: 24


Doctor's Rate chart.
0-6 Liar!
7-12 Nothing's wrong with you.
13-18 Seriously, you're fine.
19-24 I think you're fine._______________yah, not really. ahahah.
25-30 Some problems, but deal with it.
31-36 Average.
37-42 Okay, maybe there is something wrong.
>>43-48 You have issues.<<
49-54 Maybe you should go to a doctor.
55-60 Dude, wtf is wrong with you?
61-66 I'm calling the mental hospital.
67-72 Liar!



fuhgieruighiwerug
English exam and science test today
japanese exam tomorrow
japanese exam monday
business exam wednesday
science exam next thursday
KILL ME
so freaked
ugh

stolen
from :devCaitiePaigee:
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- Name: Cass
- Single or taken: Taken
- Sex: Female.
- Birthday: October 20
- Sign: Libra
- Hair color: Brown
- Eye color: Hazel
- Height: 161cm
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Rather not disclose, its all too much these days
____________________________________________________________________________
S P E C I F I C S
____________________________________________________________________________
- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Uhm... i dont know.  
- What are you listening to right now?:Evanescence
- Who is the last person that called you?: Mason
- How many buddies are online right now?: No idea, and cbs checking.
____________________________________________________________________________
F A V O R I T E S
____________________________________________________________________________
- Animal: Dogs or Lizards
- Color: Purple
- Drink: apple blackcurrant juice
- Element: Air
- Foodork, Strewberry Icecream
- Game: Sims. ahahahah
- Movie: Uhm, Dirty Dancing.
- Song: Atm its a Taylor Swift song called Other Side of the Door
- Subjects in school: English
- T.V.: Big Time Rush, NCIS
____________________________________________________________________________
H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
____________________________________________________________________________
- Given anyone a bath: Nope
- Smoked?: Nope
- Bungee jumped?: Nope.
- Made yourself throw up?: No
- Skinny dipped?: Yup
- Ever been in love?: Yes <3
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yep.
- Pictured your crush naked?: Yep. Who hasnt?
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Well yea..
- Cried when someone died?: Yep.
- Lied: I try to avoid it, but yeah.
- Fallen for your best friend?: Yeup
- Used someone?: nope
- Done something you regret?: defs. everyone does.
____________________________________________________________________________
C U R R E N T
____________________________________________________________________________
- Clothes: School Uniform
- Desktop picture: School logo and shit.
- CD in player: Adam Lambert
- DVD in player: Romeo and Juliet
____________________________________________________________________________
L A S T | P E R S O N
____________________________________________________________________________
- You touched: Michelle, she cut her leg, i kissed it better
- You kissed: Mas
- You IMed: keely
- Talk to online: keely
- You sexed it up with: Mas. ;D
___________________________________________________________________________
A R E | Y O U
___________________________________________________________________________
- Understanding?: Generally.
- Open-minded?: Yes
- Arrogant?: I can be.
- Insecure?: Very
- Random?: POTATO
- Hungry?: Always.
- Smart?: Sometimes
- Moody?: yeeeah... fuck off... i love you
- Organized?: what day is it?
- Shy?: HAAHHA NO
- Difficult?: sometimes, more like stubborn
- Bored easily?: yes. this is boring.
- Entertained easily?: yes, shiny!
- Obsessed?: easily.
- Lazy? cbs an answer.
- Angry?: dont get on my bad side
- Happy?: I am, you know. at the moment.
- Hyper?: Not right now, but i certainly have to ability to be
- Trusting?: too much so. i swear i wont tell anyone, buti just have to. i tell people secrets that i didnt plan to tell anyone
___________________________________________________________________________
R A N D O M
___________________________________________________________________________
- In the morning: get my phone, text mas, shower, dress, eat, hair, makeup, facebook, off to school.
- Love is: terrifying
- I dream about: crazy shit. like, never anything related to life. and honestly, sex. ahahahah
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into?: smell, and cleanliness. if theyre dressed nice and smell good, ill already be interested. next is skin. it sounds materialistic but i like a guy with pretty good skin.
___________________________________________________________________________
W H O
___________________________________________________________________________
- Makes you laugh the most: mason and caz
- Makes you smile: Mas also. and my dog. shutup, ok...
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: mas
___________________________________________________________________________
D O | Y O U | E V E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: not much, but i have gone all day sitting home....
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: often, but im not trans or anything. it would just be easier.
- Wish you were younger?: yes and no
- Cry because someone said something to you?: too much lately. i need to toughen up in light of these rumor spreading bitches.
___________________________________________________________________________
N U M B E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Of scars on my body: i dont talk abou tmy scars, sorry.
- Of times I have had my heart broken?: i dont know.. i dont think its ever truly broken, as mason is my first true love and he has only hurt me not actually broken me...
- Of CD's I own: ahh fuck so many
- Of bones I've broken: never none ever. excepti dislocated my arm when i was 3. i wanted a Po doll. Yeah Tellytubbies! -throws self to ground and dislocates arm-



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Hey all!

How are we all? Its been way too long. I dont even get time to write anymore

Schools good, my grades aren outstanding but im not a failure just yet. Me and my family are ok at the moment.
Mason and I are really good, weve had a couple of big fights, but we've come out stronger in the long run.

Its my birthday on Saturday! SWEET 16!!! So excited!
Im having a Red Carpet themed party, and my dress is amazing, and everyones gunna look so good, and omg. There will be a tomne of pics, my dads set up a full red carpet with blue screen and flash umbrellas and shit... so keen.

I best go.
I love you all. <3
xoxoxoxxoxo

Last journal I posted, I told you all about that party I was going to.
You know, the one I was sahh keen to hook up at?

Well, that was around 5 weeks ago now, and holy fuck, shit has changed.

I met a boy at that party. Well rather, I was shoved into him by the host/my best friend at the time.

Basically, I asked her if ex boyfriends were off limits, and she said no. Next thing i know, shes dragging me across the yard and literally throwing me at this guy.
'Hi Mason this is Cass she doesnt know many people you guys should talk ok bye!'
And then she left.

Now you guys know im not a slut, right?
RIGHT?

Ill just pretend you agree.

I dont know what it was or wahtever, but honest to god i had known this boy no more than 5 minutes and I was hooking up with him.
I remind you, NOT A SLUT.

Just as a side note, if he hadnt asked me out after that then i would havemade his death look like an accident. I kill people for money, but if he hadnt followed through, I would have killed him for free.

Anyway.
Long story very very short, my now ex best friend hates me cos she decided a little too late she wasnt ok with it and guess what guys, Ive fallen in love.

Yah, the L word.

Some people say 'It hasnt been that long...' but guys theres no grace period for that. It just happens.

Love isnt like on TV, when everything is all of a sudden so perfect.
Its more like it hits you in the face, and suddenly youre spending most your time thinking
about all the things that could go wrong, and the rest hoping that nothing does.

Thats just it.
Id like to go on and shit about 'OMG ily mason so much xoxox' but i do that enough ok? Im serious now.
So yeah.

I leave for America in 18 days. WOOOOO. Anyone live in Orlando, New York, Washington, Las Vegas or Hawaii? LETS CATCH UP.
HAHAHAH likely story. Like i actually have any foreign followers.
I can basically say the only person whos read this at all and this far, would be FP. Heeeeeyy, my only journal commenter!

I jsut wanted to get all that out.
And I feel better now.
Bye!
<3

Ok, so I'm fucked ATM. I have like 23423243 assignments due betwwen friday and monday.

ASSIGNMENTS

English - Essay - 600 words
Due: Monday

Japanese - Te Form - 500 words
Due: Friday

Dance - Essay - 800 words
Due: Friday

Rave - Review - 500 words
Due: Monday

Photography - Elements - 8 elements
Due: Monday

PLP - Resume,  cover letter
Due: Tuesday

Sports Day - Top - Sew C on
Due: Friday

SHIT I HAVE TO DO ALSO

Wednesday: Ballet (AM), Book Club (Lunch), Swimming (PM), Math Test (AM)

Thursday: Debating (Lunch), Work (PM), Science Test (AM), Sports Day (PM)

Friday: Sports Day (All Day), Carter BBQ (PM)

Saturday: Nanna and Opas (Lunch), Alexs Party (PM)

Sunday: Work (All Day)
~~~~~

So yeah, fucked. I'm going to dissapear fora  few days, okay? I'll see you Tuesday. If I'm not a) grounded, cos i had no time to clean my room or b) working.
I love you all xoxox


HOW SHY ARE YOU?
[ ] You don't like public speaking. (trollololol, state champion.)
[ ] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[ ] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[ ] You hate to go shopping alone.
TOTAL: 0

[ ] Being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[ ] When you're in a group of people, it's difficult to think of what to say
[ ] You have a lot of trouble talking to the opposite sex
[ ] You hate to be teased .
[ ] You hate answering the door.
TOTAL: 0

[/] You can't stand people watching you. (only when im working.)
[ ] One on one conversations make you nervous.
[/] You don't like to ask people for help. (yah but thats a pride thing..)
[ ] You hate to read out loud.
[ ] You don't like answering questions.
TOTAL: 1

[] you dread ordering food at restaurants.
[ ] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well
[ ] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[ ] You wish you were more outgoing.
[ ] You hate being in the center of any room.
TOTAL: 1

[/] You don't know how to react to compliments. (does anybody realyl? i kind asay thanks then return one)
[ ] You prefer reading, writing, or listening to music than being around too many people.
[ ] You blush easily.
[/] you don't like singing in front of a lot of people. (only because im bad. I do it anyway)
TOTAL: 2

Total of all: 2 out of 24
BAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. HEY EVERYONE LOOK AT ME.
Those who know me know how true that is ahahhaah
that actually made me giggle.